Just a Year Ago.

Seeing how things have been this past year take me on a long way back to when things were so easy. Friends were easily made, and easily kept. These days, life just gets harder and harder to deal with. When your stuck in between important people, what do you choose? I'm sorry that I haven't been as good of a friends as I could have ever been. It's just horrible to feel as if life is going great; that I'm busting my ass off to do what I can. Things have been hard for me, maybe you can't see it. But you 're not the only one that has needs and wants. I want to be the best friend that you all deserve, but maybe I need to trust myself a little more first. I want to be confident, to not have the feeling that every little thing I do can cost me my friend; my best friends. I want to live knowing that people are there no matter what. Cause honestly, they're not. Even last year, last night I was upset. I remember it not like it was last year, but just a day ago. I wanna apologize to everyone, here and now. It's hard not knowing what your place is in this world.